as i sit here in the dark,

pateintly awaiting the truth to come to light,

because i know it will sooner or later.

my mind remains blank except for the thought of u.

i open my eyes and i swear i can see your silhoutte within the darkness of the night,

and as i begin to raise to my feet to approach this exquisite figment of my imagination. constantly replayin in my mind is the last time that me and you were together,

the last time we were we,

us,

1.

the last time i was truly happy,

truly satisfied,

and content with everything in my life.

how ima miss those days..

i long so much to wake up next to u.

to rollover and c everything i thought i could never find in a person

right,

there,

in,

you.

they say that no ones perfect but i constantly think in my mind is damn,

if they only,

knew,

u.

sumtimes im at a loss for words when i begin to try and explain u to someone.

bcuz truly it is absolutely impossible to explain all the great things that make u who u are.

i dont even think meriam and webster have enough words to describe such an amazing creation of God.

But then i think to myself how i could i have done the things i done.

wat was such a perfect union has now become the biggest regret of my life bcuz i kno the mistakes i've made can never be undone.

i hate the fact that when u find out the truth its gonna hurt so much.

not only for u,

but 4 me 2,

bcuz i kno that no matter how hard i search i will never be able to find a perfect being for me,

like,

u.

and as the tears begin to flow from my eyes down my cheeks,

i come bacc to reality but it hurts so much knowin that neva again will u be there to wipe those tears frrom eyes.

and as i regretfully wipe them away i peek into the darknesss once again to see this beautiful silhoutte,

but it looks more reeal this time.

so slowly i approach this exquisite figment of my imagination,

only to realize that thats all it is,

and bcuz of my mistakes thats all it will ever be.

and truly i do apologize,

for i am the cause,

of our,

demise.